like strangers detatch

i really was not built in any way or form to be able to deal with people leaving or saying goodbyes. i'm ok with the time before the departure and i can deal with the time after, it's the actual moment itself when you think of everything you want to say and do/should have said and done/shouldn't say and do/shouldn't have said and done. TECHNICALLY, you're less likely to have to deal with the consequences of whatever as this'll be followed, inevitably, by a parting of ways.

i'm putting my brave face(s) aside.